I met "Ben" about a year and a few months ago. We had an instant attraction and connection and started dating days after meeting. We continued to date for just over three months. Of course, three months isn't long, but there was something different about this guy. We spent a lot of time together, always had a blast, had so much in common, I had not felt like this about someone in a long time, well maybe not ever.
Naturally this relationship didn't last. He broke up with me because "he didn't want it to go any further" he "wasn't looking for a relationship." Yada, yada, yada - same old story. This was a blow, I really cared (still care) about this guy.
I don't talk to him for about 3 weeks. Then things go back to normal - we talk, hang out, it was like nothing changed. A few months later we had an entire weekend of relationship like behavior and of course when I brought up the questions - it was the same answer I had gotten several months prior. Still, not interested in a relationship. At that point I told him I did not want to talk to him or see him anymore. I had to give myself time to get over him.
That brings us to now, 5 months after not talking. And....SURPRISE. The cycle is starting all over again. Why do I keep letting this happen? Is it because I still have such strong feelings for him or because I don't want to be alone. Maybe both. Who knows. whatever the reason, stay tuned....this should be interesting.
Still Single.....
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