One for the books....

So, I kind of left something out of my last post.  I wasn't going to broadcast this story, but after further consideration I figured it's too funny not too.

Saturday I spent the day watching football (and drinking) with some friends and Ben (the ex).  Afterwards, Ben and I went back at his house to watch more football and a movie (yes that's it).  About 30 minutes into hanging out I suddenly got very hot and felt like I was going to be ill.  I jump up and claim to need to get my cell phone from my car.  As I run out the door and down the steps to his apartment I start puking uncontrollably.  I have no idea what came over me, I wasn't that drunk but something made me sick.  I puked all the way out to my car.  It was horrible.  

I was so paranoid about it that the next morning I actually drove back out to his house so I could see in the light if I had left a mess.  The good news is, I didn't.  I don't think he ever caught on but leave it to me to get sick the first night we hang out in months!!

And I wonder why....

Still Single

Never Ending Story...

Why is it that I can never just be completely through with a guy?  It's like I have some sort of stamp on my forehead that says "sucker."  Happens with every relationship - why should this one be any different?

I met "Ben" about a year and a few months ago.  We had an instant attraction and connection and started dating days after meeting.  We continued to date for just over three months.  Of course, three months isn't long, but there was something different about this guy.  We spent a lot of time together, always had a blast, had so much in common, I had not felt like this about someone in a long time, well maybe not ever.  

Naturally this relationship didn't last.  He broke up with me because "he didn't want it to go any further" he "wasn't looking for a relationship."  Yada, yada, yada - same old story.  This was a blow, I really cared (still care) about this guy.  

I don't talk to him for about 3 weeks.  Then things go back to normal - we talk, hang out, it was like nothing changed.  A few months later we had an entire weekend of relationship like behavior and of course when I brought up the questions - it was the same answer I had gotten several months prior.  Still, not interested in a relationship.  At that point I told him I did not want to talk to him or see him anymore.  I had to give myself time to get over him.

That brings us to now, 5 months after not talking.  And....SURPRISE.  The cycle is starting all over again.  Why do I keep letting this happen?  Is it because I still have such strong feelings for him or because I don't want to be alone.  Maybe both.  Who knows.  whatever the reason, stay tuned....this should be interesting.

Still Single.....

I don't really care if anyone ever reads this.  But just in case you do.  Here is some background on me.

I live in Charleston, SC.  I am in my late 20's.  I am a college graduate.  I have a successful career.  I have a loving family and great friends.  I love the outdoors.  I am not rich, but do ok.  I don't like adult cartoons.  I hate it when someone gives you a wet willy.  I love my dog.   I have never had a serious relationship.  I have only been with one person.  I am single, in the city.

Growing up - I had the two most loving parents you could ever meet in your life.  They never fought with each other, they always held hands, always said I love you.  They have been married for 30 years next fall.  My mom never worked while I was growing up, instead she stayed home with my brother and I until we were in high school.  The four of us were (and still are) a very happy family.  Because of my up bringing I have only ever desired one thing, a family.

I used to joke that in college I was getting my MRS. degree.  After graduation came and went and the real world slapped me in the face I ended up here in Charleston.  I got a job doing what I love and was on my way to a great career.  This is something I never imagined.  Truthfully I never wanted a career.  I just wanted to graduate and get married - imagine my surprise when I found myself loving my job.

So here I am, 27 and single.  I know, I am young right?  What's the rush?  No rush really.  I just wish that there was a promise of my dream of having a family to come true.  Right now, there's nothing.  Like I said, I have a great family and amazing friends, but at the end of the day - I have nothing to come home to, and that gets a little old.  It's the same story with me, one failed disfunctioning non-relationship after the next.  I have terrible luck with men, I am serious.  You'll see.

So over the next several posts I will share my thoughts (with whoever) on my love life or lack there of, my relationships of the past - and anything that may happen to come up in the future. 

Til next time,

Still Single In The City